Saturday, April 25, 2009

Reminder of Our Lives

It's hard to hear about a family who has so much faith in the Lord and might have to lose their child. How some families are not as fortunate as others who take their little ones home from the NICU. Those babies who never got to see the light of day because their health would not let them. But this is the reminder that we have to be thankful for what we have in our lives. As I write this blog tonight my heart feels heavy. Heavy like the feeling of having a knot in your throat that you want to scream. You just look back and hear stories and see that people have to let go of someone they became one with .

Lord, I thank you for my daughters Addyson and Adryana. Thank you for having them here with me. Thank you for their smiles, tears, cries, laughters and thank you for every breath they take!!!! I went through seeing my daughters have tubes in their mouths, IVs everywhere, wires coming out of everywhere-NOT ONCE DID I QUESTION WHY?!!! Because if God put me in that path I knew He was by my side every step of the way!!!! Thank you for being so good to me!!! All those tears of sadness of not having my girls with me, those tears when I use to leave the hospital at 1am knowing that I would walk into an empty nursery, those tears of not knowing what to expect, those tears of joy when my daughters would gain 1 GRAM.......that all was WORTH IT!!!!!!!

For those of you who question God, sit down and think it could be a lot worst. Give thanks for the hardships, give thanks for the tears, give thanks for the fears and give thanks for the goodness in our lives.

Tomorrow is the March for Babies and like I said I will be walking for:
  • My Twin Daughters, Addyson and Adryana
  • Kayleigh Anne Freeman
  • Baby Alayah (R.I.P)
  • Baby Rania (R.I.P)
  • and all those babies who has left our earth to be with Our Heavenly Father
This one is for you all!!!!



Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Dear Kayleigh

Everyone please pray for Kayleigh
who is not doing so well at the moment. My heart goes out to Adam and Aimee and the rest of their family. Kayleigh is currently brain dead and the doctors are losing hope. Please Lord bless that family. Be with the family at this moment Lord.

I've been following Kayleigh blog since December and she reminds me so much of my Addyson.
Kalyeigh was born 1 pound and she looked so much like my Addy. Kayleigh's has gone through it all but I ask all of you to pray for her. She is a reason along with my girls that I have such strong faith. Their family is a perfect example of how faith can be tested and her family never loses it. Lord pass your beloved hand over her. From head to toe. Heal her Lord, give her the strength she needs to keep going. Let the doctors see hope in Kayleigh. Let them give her a fighting chance once again.

Kayleigh, I'm walking this Sunday in the March of Dimes. I'm walking in your honor and my twin girls as well. God is good and He will not give you something you cannot handle. I have faith I will see your eyes open again!!!!!



Monday, April 20, 2009

Giving Back

Always in the back of my mind I wanted to give back....since the Lord was good with me and my girls. Never once did I doubt God in what I went through with my girl. Not once did I say "why me?". Not once did I regret the sacrifices I made for my girls, since I knew they went through a lot more to be here with me. Therefore, it's my turn to give back.

Two weeks before I gave birth, Anderson and I were anxiously looking for a two bedroom apartment. It was very difficult for us to look for one since I was in the hospital for most of my pregnancy. Once I got out everything fell into place and we found a beautiful two bedroom apartment in a private house with great owners. It was hard to get to know the owners because I gave birth two weeks later. My owner Karina came to see me in the hospital as soon as I gave birth and boy I have never met a person with so much faith (besides my parents of course). Karina had a son whom she lost at the age of 8 months. Karina told me all her son went through but never in my life I would have thought that she lost a child. Karina told me that day in the hospital "Have faith Jacci , your girls are healthy all they need to do is grow". She went on to tell me the whole story of her son Isaiah. Which leads me to telling you my new adventure.

Isaiah was at rehabilitation center in Bayside, NY called St. Mary's Children's Hospital. There were many children there who's parents would not go visit for whatever reasons they have. Therefore, I would like to go visit those children who do not have family visit them on a daily basis. Life can be busy but one smile to a child can make their day. There's is no limit on how much love a child needs. I know you must be thinking how can she volunteer have twin girls at home. My answer to you....I CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!! An hour, two hours, or 4 hours a week cannot hurt anyone. It's called a good deed. I feel God was sooo good to us. Through the good and bad He was ALWAYS BY OUR SIDE. It's sad to know there are babies who's families have given up on them. Not giving them a fighting chance or families who have children at home and wish they had someone to keep their child accompanied so they will not feel alone. When I use to leave my girls at 1am everyday from the hospital I would always feel my heart go crumbling to piece (I know I can be dramatic) but thats how I felt. Imagine the baby?

Babies feel everything!!!!!!! They say it take one person to make a difference. It's going to start with me!